Okay...
Truth be told....
I'm a little weary!
Am I the only one that feels this way at times?
I look back at when my last blog post was and ask myself,
"What is wrong with you lady?"
"Get it together already!!"
So I've been pondering why I am feeling this way.
I think this last year's grief has taken a toll on me.
The piper is coming to be paid.
And then I look at the last two months.
A really stressful trip to Utah, 80 hours in the car, going back and forth between Panguitch and St George, taking loads.
Dealing with 'all' of our stuff from 3 storage units.
Literally everything had to be gone through and a decision made over it:
Keep it.
Sell it.
Give it away.
Last weekend we did a show in Hattiesburg Mississippi.
It was wonderful to meet new people and see
gorgeous quilts once again.
But somehow after a show I feel so depleted and it takes
me days to get my 'get up and go' back again.
The people as always keep me going.
The highlight of that trip was meeting Susie Jackson and
seeing her amazing quilts.
I convinced her to quilt my Parisian Summer for me.
(Note to Self: I've got to maximize these highlights more when I'm
in this state of mind!"
And now I'm gearing up for company tonight...
which means I have to clean house....
I have a baby shower to pull off for Tory next Saturday....
and the piles of fabric I've brought home from the Utah trip
have made my studio look like Hurricane John'aLee
has visited once again!!
Finally...
all this hand sewing that still needs to be done on my quilts,
weighs heavily on my mind daily!
I thought quilting was supposed to be fun!!
So enough of the complaining!
Any ideas from my loyal readers on how to not beat myself up
over not getting enough done would be much appreciated!
Thanks....
from a humble and needy heart...
Keep Calm, Carry On, and quit pressuring yourself. The only one who is making the deadline is YOU. It's OK for downtime. We all do it. You will get to it when you get to it. If you force it and make yourself meet deadlines, you will take all the fun out of it. It's OK!
ReplyDeleteSending hugs!
Michelle
i know exactly what you mean. my favorite time of year has begun and i am overwhelmed by how much i have to do! i am really trying hard to slow myself down and enjoy each minute of it rather than getting totally stressed out. it is sort of working!
ReplyDeleteOh, John 'aLee, I wish I could come clean your house for you. Sounds like you have been emotionally depleted, without enough experiences that fill your own well. You have been the one taking care of everything and everyone else (that is your nature). I have no great solutions other than take stock of all you have been through, realize what you are feeling is normal for what you have had to deal with and allow yourself time to restore. Set aside things that you have put on a "have to" list that really don't NEED to be there right now. Replace them with things that nourish you. Do the truly needful things and then give yourself permission to be important enough to pamper for a bit! You'll be in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteYou have way to much on your plate, make a list and prioritize what needs to be done. I know how you feel about company coming for dinner (that was me last week) I cleaned house, decorated for fall and made a wonderful dinner. I was glad when that was over though. The shower seems to be next on your list, don't worry about the sewing room unless that relaxes you.
ReplyDeleteEveryone else said exactly what I would ahve said too. Obviously you are empty and need a big fill up. Do that and the rest will come.
ReplyDeleteBe good to your self. You can only do so much. Take some down time for your self, you deserve it.
ReplyDeleteStop beating yourself up right now! You are just one person and you have enough to keep a dozen people busy! Slow down, breathe, be good to yourself! Your friends are coming to see you, not your house. They will remember the laughter and fun. And if you close the door to your sewing room, you can save it for a rainy day. ;-) Have a great weekend!
ReplyDeleteNo wonder you are tired! If I did all you did I would be worn out. You need to take a break and take time for yourself!
ReplyDeleteBig Hugs,
Donna
Hugs to you dear ... everything will fall in place when it is supposed to, and if not, it wasn't supposed to be. Take care of you!!
ReplyDeleteOne stitch at a time, and it will all get finished. Take some down time which then renews your go time, and you will be fine.
ReplyDeleteMy Larry would say, "Give yourself a break!" He's such a sweet guy. I think you need that down time without the outside demands...hugs to you ~
ReplyDelete:-}pokey
I'm 3 1/2 years into my grief journey since my youngest son passed away from metastatic cancer. One thing I know for sure is that it is a journey and it changes direction all the time. It is good to take time to renew and recharge. I sense that you have a loving and supportive family and that really, really, helps. Do what you love and love what you do. If you're not loving it right now, step back a little. It's okay. I send you prayers and gentle hugs.
ReplyDeleteLeslie
You are amazing in all that you do! You are incredibly talented and creative! Life gets in the way of our business and creative sides sometimes. You have been through so much, not just in the past year, but for a very long time. Both of us have had to put family first for the past year. That is something that has been necessary and absolutely should have been the highest priority. While it sometimes forces the creative side and business side into the backseat, we have had our priorities right! I am convinced that the aftermath of this time, will help us to be creative again when the time is right and to have more energy for our business when it is time to get back to work full time. Creeping back into shows will energize you again. Missed you guys at PIQF over the weekend. It's strange to see someone else there.
ReplyDeleteWhen a couple of friends at work used to come to me, overwhelmed with all they had to do, I would advise them to concentrate on one task at a time; to focus on that task, enjoy it for what it is and try to forget what is next on the list until it's finished. Not easy, I know, but they found it helpful and one said it was one of the best pieces of advice she had ever been given. And don't forget to keep some time for yourself too, while applying all the above. I hope this helps a little.
ReplyDeleteTeresa x
Oh sweet Girl! Of course you're not alone! It's time for you to circle the wagons and take some time to feed your soul. You have been experiencing so many changes and taking care of everything and everyone. Eventually we hit overload. Prayers that you hand your burdens over to the One who loves you greatly and that His peace, that surpasses all understanding surrounds you. Be blessed dear lady.
ReplyDeleteI didn't know your daughter was expecting? I am sure you are really excited.
ReplyDeleteI think life does drain us at time and sorry about what I am going to say but...as we get older our reserves are just not there.
I am so sorry that you have been feeling the stress of this past year. Your family has been through so much. We all go through tough times, and I know I always feel like I am the only one sinking. Praying that the Lord will bring peace to your heart and lift your spirits.
ReplyDeleteHugs,
Jocelyn
Hey girl!Sounds like you are in need of a little mini vacation! Congratulations on the new addition to your family!
ReplyDeleteHow sweet... maybe the miracle of little grand-baby will slow you down enough to stop and smell the ... I was going to say roses, but then I remembered that sweet baby smell... :)
Hang in there... and breath... walk... and be grateful!!!
sending love!
Deb